If I Can Talk, I Can Write

lundi, août 14, 2006

I'm so scared right now. I Love her soo much and I don't want her to be feeling the pain she must be feeling right now. Please Trisha, please talk to me soon. Don't push me away, please!!! If you need to be alone for a time, then at least tell me, don't just leave me like this. I'm worried about you.
This is a test from the Lord. I know it because I read it in the bible. Perhaps he's testing my faith.. or my Love for her, or my understanding of myself, or my endurance, or something... there's a test here. I will pass it.
Trisha, you are the only girl with whom I've fallen in Love like this.. I've never felt this way about any other person. I care about you too much to let go.. please don't let go of me so easily. Let us work it out. That's all i ask.. if it doesn't work out, then we can always be friends... but let us at least try and make an effort to see if we can salvage our romantic relationship. I can't see my life without you... don't ignore me please.
God grant me comfort during this time of pain. I'm hurting and as I lay in bed, I cry to you for relief. I cry that this test will pass and I shall one day realize your plans for me and why this happened. Do not let me be angry.
WHY GOD!? I HAVE A HARD TIME BELIEVING THAT YOU WOULD BRING US TOGETHER ONLY TO TEAR US APART. Please show me some sign that you are listening to my pleas. Help me to understand. I'm in pain.. definitely not in as much pain as you felt when you were on the cross suffering for those you loved who did not love you back. But you were in comfort and in paradise. You are my refuge, my rock, my saviour. Save me from disaster. Help me to continue to Love and show me Your Love.
Where there is pain, there is love. Where there is love, there is pain.
I AM IN LOVE and it hurts so bad. 4:38:00 PM