If I Can Talk, I Can Write

mercredi, septembre 17, 2003

Soon dear, soon. Can you believe I had another dream with her in it! But this one was different though because this time, it was a daydream. Yes, and she comes into my concious mind too. Everytime I look on my dresser or everytime I remember the past, she seems to somehow show me and make me realize my progressing feelings about her. I can't drive by without thinking, "she's over there." And I can't read her writings without thinking, "Goodness, how i missed her and now I miss her." 1:44:00 AM

vendredi, septembre 12, 2003

Another odd mood. I don't blog anything in here unless it's odd. Oddness. I wish she were here with me so we could talk about stuff. Just talk. That's all. 1:37:00 AM

jeudi, septembre 11, 2003

David tells me that this blog is much more interesting than my other one. It's all freetype anyway. Ooh who's on tv! It's Sonya's very own Seth Green. Bah, he's talking about binge parties or something. Hmmm... now that I notice it, Sonya dresses just like he does. Interesting. Natalie Merchant was on tv a while back. Now that I notice it, David dresses just like... haha, I'm just kidding. Seth and Natalie. Sonya & David. Hmmm...
I don't want to lose confidence in platonic relationship. But I don't know what to make of them anymore, especially lately. But let's not get into that. Remember Andréa? That was platonic... at least it seemed to me. I haven't had a girlfriend since pre-school. I don't know why I'm thinking about it now but I think it's kindof embarassing or something in a world that is the way it is now. There's always something odd about the crushes and infatuations and likings that I have. They never seem to work because they always come from causes that I am never sure of. But I guess love is an unsure thing. And tragically, I'm not a totally self-confident fellow. There's one of my big flaws. I'm attracted to either the wrong people or for the wrong reasons. I'm hungry. I think I'm going to raid the fridge and think some more about mes problemes. Mmmm ice. 2:12:00 AM

samedi, septembre 06, 2003

Mad at me? Or perhaps you're just disappointed. And you may not care or say you do. What I've seen... I hope it doesn't hurt you... that it doesn't hurt us. Not that there is an us, or ever was an us in the first place, but I promise to try my best in that sense... I knowm I know that only I can libreate myself but I need your help because I love you. And love is soo much stronger than what we are dealing with here. 7:21:00 PM