If I Can Talk, I Can Write

jeudi, août 28, 2003

Bahh... over-comfortablility spells VACATION. I think it was an I Love Lucy episode once. Read my lips... New ones indeed. 6:06:00 PM

mercredi, août 27, 2003

Yess... today I got an e-mail from yet another person I never expected to see again but somehow she got my address... It's Venessa from the UCDavis Summer Advising session I attended back in July. How wonderful!!! A few weeks ago, Anna wrote me a lettre and it was the sweetest thing... you should've seen it... she has her own personalized stationary. I have stationary and I like the texture of it but I'm running low. Where do you suppose I can find some nice classique-style stationary paper and envelopes? Anyway, that's just another tangent. It seems all the people I know who are going to UCD are staying in Regan Hall in a quad-style config. Ilck. It's gonna take a lot of time getting used to them... I tell ya. The middle room is fairly medium in size so it isn't that bad but the bedrooms!!! They are sooo confining like prison cells. I myself am going to have two roomies so I'm in a triple room but I don't know how big that would be in the Tercero building. I'm staying in the Hammerskjold House as they call it... I don't know why because it is neither a house nor a... ummm house. Anyway, it should be interesting.
I'm a bit worried about my relationship with friends here back home. Especially with people like David and Sonya, Justin and Maridelle, and all other people I haven't talked to much lately. With David, i better be the one to call him before he goes off to UCR. I haven't talked to him since like forever but I have confidence in our friendship. With Sonya, it's a different story. I long feared the day when she and I would run out of things to say to each other since we talk about just about everything there is to talk about. Now I never know what to say to her anymore. It's a sad comparison and I wish it weren't so but my relationship with her is almost seeming like it's close to what happened between Andréa and I... minus the whole dramah thing. With Justin, I don't know, either. I know I'm going to know hom for a long time, but will we actually speak to each other? We live a block apart from each other in the same hometown but how can I say that we'll be as close as we could be. Maridelle, I never actually considered being a very good friend until lately when we've got to talking. What will happen now? I dunno.
I don't talk much with people anymore. There are some people i totally haven't talked to since graduation. Sameea, Fatima, Victoria, Yesenia, Carlos, just to name a few. I don't get into social moods as often as I wished. I'm not anti-social at all. I'm just maybe a bit introverted, you could say. It's just that I'm always at a loss of words. End of Post. 1:57:00 PM

samedi, août 16, 2003

Guess what? I don't belong! Well what do you know, Ben is not what you call, involved anymore, now is he? He's just there. Just there indeed. Guess what, he feels better! Let's overcome expectation indeed, right? What would Lowell say? What does Sonya say? Is David even around to say anything about it anymore? Where is what's-her-name? Terrible. I love but cannot because it's just there. What if I said, you are just there. You wouldn't care. Okay. Well I ought to rejoice then... because the world has grown to be apathetic and loving. Loving, yeah psh. Please. 1:44:00 AM