If I Can Talk, I Can Write
jeudi, juillet 31, 2003
my bad poem:
flabbergasted vineyard
I feel so flabbergasted and effervescent sometimes,
sometimes i want to cannibalize my veins and die,
the vineyard is so alluring and sad,
the nude people sound like phantoms .
I feel so flabbergasted and effervescent ,
nobody understands my addictive , bloody pain ,
I want to lust and defenestrate in the rain
the vineyard reminds me of feeling effervescent , the nude people mock my insanity ,
sometimes i want to cannibalize my veins and die,
underneath the alluring , felicititious sky
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5:05:00 PM
vendredi, juillet 25, 2003
Everybody's out watching movies... The last new movie I saw was Terminator III. It was pretty good but the ending was terribly unsettling. Terrible indeed, if you can call it an ending. Anyway, I'm looking forward to the new Lara Croft movie... it looks promising. 28 Days Later is another zombie survival thriller... i sortof want to see it but I just hope it isn't cliché. Resident evil was overplayed although Michelle Rodriguez in that movie was oooooh.... ;) haha.
Everybody is talking about the Pirates of the Carribean movie... I think I want to see it- everybody seems to like it. sigh* I wonder if anybody want to go to the movies. David aint around and he's the only person i really go the movies with now a days. Welp, gotta go!
11:31:00 PM
mercredi, juillet 23, 2003
Here come the sun is on the radio right now. I love the morning... I just wish i got up on time to experience it. The sun was once my enemy and now it's my friend... sometimes. It's been so hot lately that I never knew what to do about it. Sonya says she's dying from heat. I haven't been because the airconditioning has been on a lot here at the Catabas embassies. I don't know if I can continue with international relations as a major.. I will sure try, but it's not that I'm losing interests... it's just that i dont think i have enough of the skills necessary and i dont think that the competetive world is ready for me to know what i have to know and be what i want to be. i think i may very well settle into teaching... i want to become a university professor. that would be neato. high school level teaching would be ok too perhaps. ah high school, my old buddies. i'm starting to forget. it's sad. sometimes, i want to be with all the people in my old high school years and embrace them so tightly and just cry but other times, i feel like i want to push them away because they are the past. Get away from me!, I'd say. It's all gone... my new future is ahead of me. college life is my next step... with whole new people and friends. i can't believe this is going through my mind. i will never forget dhs though. there are places i'll remember all my life, though some have changed- some forever not for better. time changes. people change. change changes. change is inevitible. i want to live healthily past 100 years old. i was watching tv and the oldest living person is now 120 something years old and she has no illness... totally healthy. that's cool to know she still wants to live more and love more. she loves life and she is now an inspiration. she should inspire my grandmother who's always wanting to die... my grandfather too... they're both just waiting to die. And it's not even DIE in caps... but die... because it's no big deal anymore. sad. sad sad. i keep telling them that they are still young at 80 something years old... they can live past 100 if they wished.... or if God willed it. God will not grant death to those who want it before their time has come. Death is not granted. It just happens. It just happens. 12:21:00 AM
